and we back

lord forgive me, im back on my bullshit again (posting on my silly lil website)
its been a long while, probably like 2-3 years since i was consistent about maintaining my site, so it'll be fun to recommit to it! after i had my brief experience with internet fame i got very particular about what i create and put into the world. and, to a great extent, that feeling persists, but over the past year ive gotten more normal and have felt comfortable to release things that are more experimental for me.
artistically, i think thats what 2025 was defined by. 2024 was my blow up, but 2025 was my maturation, both artistically and personally. immediately after my brush with niche internet micro celebrity, i think i got pretty conceited and annoying toward a lot of my friends, which i feel pretty embarrassed about. it's not like im anyone important, i just got recognized now and then in trans spaces.
last year i came to terms with the idea that im likely past my peak of popularity, and that's a blessing. i have much less neuroticism around the things i release and im less of an asshole, which we love, #growth or whatever.
im pretty pumped to put out a bunch of bullshit again. no promises or anything, but im busy making stuff. youll see some blogposts here and there, videos on my 2nd channel like always, and hopefully some more substantial stuff as well.
shoutout to my friend ashna for helping me make this site by the way. me and her have spent a lot of time together recently, and its been a massive buff to most parts of my life. its really cool to have close friends, actually!