On capitalization

   Lately, in my "serious" writings (whatever "serious" truly means when it comes to art) I've tended to use proper capitalization and punctuation. This is in contrast to typing like this all the time.

  I think I've done this because I'm kind of annoyed with how flippant a lot of online communication feels in the mainstream, and at my core, I'm a contrarian dickhead. Always have been. That's not changing anytime soon.

  When I'm just talking with friends, yeah, i will continue to talk like this and, like, put filler words all over or whatever, y'know? idc really. But when I'm trying to communicate a deeper idea in long form writing (blogpost, letter, script, journal entries, etc) I'll type in a way that makes it easier to read, because holy shit I struggle to read all lowercase text for long periods of time lately.

  I've done a lot of nonstandard writing stylization in the past, and because the internet facilitates a lot of goofy fuckshit, it can be fun, but I think it's because I'm more generally anti-internet lately. I wanna go outside and play guitar and run around in circles with my friends, not scroll reddit getting mad at the liberals on r/minneapolis. (Seriously though, some of those freaks turn into hitler the moment they see a homeless person, it's insane.)

  I go back to website creation every time the broader internet feels particularly soulless and life draining, the way it has for me lately. It's frustrating to see that a place with so much potential for expression is dominated by like 8 websites that everyone uses. I wrote a whole video essay on why I thought YouTube videos are a cool medium and how it differs from movies/film/tiktok/etc, but I scrapped the entire thing because I just *can't* believe in the beauty of something that sucks so bad right now.

  I don't think I have a final, conclusive thesis statement to make with this post. This is mostly frusturated word vomit that I get to put on the internet because nobody can tell me how to use my website. <3